fuck you, jon

i just got word that allen's mom died in a car accident last night. i was on the phone with him just a minute ago. he kept put together. he told me that we always try to prepare for changes in our lives. change of car, changing friends, changing schools, moving into a new house, and even deaths in the family. and he also said that we could have the worst day on the planet, and our co-workers might be having bad days so they won't talk to you about it, and sometimes your friends don't answer the phone, sometimes your siblings just don't get it, but you've always got your mom. he told me he was prepared for his dad to die because of the lifestyle he's leading. i couldn't feel as he was telling me all of this. damn. well, that kid's got a strong heart and a lot of love. he's going to be all right.